On Being Afraid...And More
When I think of the emotion I'm most comfortable with, my answer would have to be fear. Reading that over I can understand how that might be confusing, since fear is not a comfortable feeling. Some find fear to be motivating...I am not one of those people. I have been fearful most of my life. I was scared I would fall off my bike, so I never learnt. I was scared I would fall on the ice, so I refused to learn how to skate. Regular experiences most people associate with childhood and think of as normal experiences, I missed out on because I was scared. When I got diagnosed with an anxiety disorder in my early teens, my mental health took a turn for the worst. It's hard to explain to people what it's like living a life in constant fear. It's debilitating. I couldn't leave the house, I couldn't go to school, I couldn't see my friends. I didn't graduate with my class. I didn't leave for university when all my friends did. I felt like I was...